A whole entry of only Rants.

This seemingly endless and worsening unseen monster has taken a toll in everyone's lives for most part of the world right now. It's existence alone is already a threat to lives, but what makes it even scarier is that it does not only take away people's lives by hijacking their lungs and organs, it also reveals that this world we are living in alone is way more scarier than we normally thought of. It unveils the faces of the corrupts, the hedeous truths beneath all the lies sugarcoated and the ignorance of the people with their money stacking.

It's hard for everyone, but I think of all the unfortunates in my life, I'd regret being born in this country the most. #ytjt. Penat. Penat bukan sebab semata-mata having to be cautious of this virus Covid-19, penat jugak because after a year this pandemic hits, not a lot has changed. Things are even worse now. Healthcare system in the country might be collapse soon with the numbers shown each day getting higher and higher. Penat having to be locked up with my ownself, having to live through my loud thoughts days and nights. I know out of all, I still should be grateful the fact that I am able to write this entry means I have all the necessities I needed to survive days but it's still hard, okay?

I need normal, physical classes days. I don't mind being tired having to go back and forth to classes under the hot blaring sun (with umbrella of course) asalkan I go to physical classes actually serap 70%-80% of the syllabus being taught. I'd rather have myself tired and worn out that way than  having to silently battle my thoughts, my existential crisis, my depression while also trying to stay focus acah-acah staring at the screen konon-konon fokus yang amat lepastu bila lecturer calls out my name to answer questions I dah serabut kepala salahkan diri kenapa macamni, kenapa macamtu. I can go on and on all day all night long ranting about all this misfortunes in life I am currently facing but dalam hidup ni biarlah bersederhana dalam apapun yang kita buat especially bab merungut. Kena belajar berstyukur lebih daripada merungut dengan harapan ganjaran daripada bersyukur tu dapat balik kat kita. gitteww #donedakwah

Haih. It is still tiring for me thought. I hope whoever reads this and is apparently going through a lot as well, may the force be with you! Semoga ada jalan keluar di sebalik kepayahan yang Tuhan berikan. Semoga Tuhan dengar doa kita dan makbulkan mana yang perlu. Semoga juga Tuhan keluarkan negara kita dari tangan-tangan yang tak kenal erti tanggungjawab.