22

another year, another update- internally, and externally. though I haven't feel like I've done or am doing much of a progress, life however still makes me live through it. and on that, i swear, is a progress that I'd like to be proud of myself. for being able to keep it through. for being able to fight my own devil and desire to end my own life. pretty interesting how 2 years have passed- I used to wish death on my 20th, but He knows best, as always. okay, not the depressing shit around here.

Happy Birthday, Azwa Dania. here's your update. software? hardware? I don't know. this update comes with a whole tonns of surprises. and only with great hardships shall you find your own upgraded strength. till then, there's no promised deets on how you're going to grow in this chapter. let that be on God's hands.

you. you keep on going. keep holding on. keep having as much reboots as you want. if that's what it takes for you to stay sane, be it that way. life's too tiring, more in this lifetime (ffs- why am I born in this lifetime???) so what's wrong with shutting down yourself every now and then to rerouting your life decisions and paths? it's yours and you're entitled to it. to keep on feeling like life's hopeless and at the same time, wanting to hold on to that one last string of hope. it's ironic- but it has been that way all this time, you have always been that way and the living proof is... you're still breathing and writing this entry post.