a small rant of life

Have you ever feel like...

You have it all, you're fine, feels good to be what you are right now, or where you're staying, you're rejuvenating and life feels very... Complete?

And then time would drag you to hole of darkness all over again?

And... You notice it yet you're not sure what will you ever be capable of to change it, right? I mean... life happens.

Life happens. Regardless how unhappy (sounds weird if I say 'or happy' here).

One realization that I had and have too often every, single, year. I don't know how come I was able to make it this far, but I... did? I'm here, still. Not sure for how long. And will never can confirm if my dying moments would be a tragedy or a bless. I don't feel like figuring out my ending for now, I just want to live every ticks the clock goes.